There was a time….
..when I described my life as ‘an island on fire’.
I didn’t know how, but I knew if I didn’t leave the island and set sail to somewhere else (figuratively) that the fire would consume me.
I remember sitting in a cafe with a dear friend and tearing up, whilst I literally traced out how I felt on a napkin.
‘Here I am, it’s one fire and I know I have to leave to go over there, but I don’t know where that is or how I’ll get there and I’m afraid to leave the island, even though to stay is not possible’.
This is how I described to her how I felt in that moment.
I HATED my job, literally felt sick at the thought of continuing to do it.
Yet, I felt trapped.
By financial responsibility for my family.
That to leave my job might make people think I’d failed.
That leaving something that was good, to go find something better was forbidden.
The thought ‘I should be happy with what I had, and after my rocky past, to have anything at all’.
Where I was, wasn’t enough, and everything within me was telling me that, but fear held me there.
If this is how you feel, maybe not word for word, but on some level internally that your island is on fire, I get it.
I’ve lived it.
Today my purpose is to share with women just like you, some of the tools I used and continue to use to get clarity from the fire.
To decode that warning system, which was wailing at full volume and release what it was actually trying to tell me.
I was good enough
It was okay to want to walk a different path, and get off the one I had chosen
That every day was a gift and to waste those days, doing what I HATED, knowing I was making such a low-level contribution to life, to be hiding myself from the world – was not the way to make the most of it.
I believe we are our own Gurus and that every answer to every question you’ve ever looked outside of yourself to answer, is at your fingertips, whenever you want it.
The key is to learn how to tune in and turn down the white noise, and remember.
If you’re like me, you may need to erase your backing track and replace it with a new one 😊.
It would be my absolute honour to share with you all the ways I unlocked the treasures I already held inside, and be privileged enough to watch you do it too.